seeing

We have now been rehearsing with a director for a while. This is someone we looked for to help us with rehearsals, characters and structures. It is funny and wonderful the way these rehearsals and this relationship has developed. At first all ideas were fixed from the scratch, what worked and what had to be transformed and developed, and there was great resistence to any new ideas that Rob brought in. However, (now I see the beauty of it) there is so much in theatre that I had not considered. As we bring the structure together I start realizing where the difference lies between the "theatrical" performance and the "artistic" performance. I start suddenly noticing how the audience differs in each, how the engagement, structure, narrative and need for conducting are completly different. I have not yet defined where my interest lies. May be it is not purely in one side. May be I want to explore the borderline between these two manifestations of the same and not so the same art. For now I am learning theatre, learning through developing structures that will allow it to happen, as theatre. And then.... all to come will shine under a different, entirely new light.

- sprouts of thought in the late hours of the night or early hours of the morning -